whack me between my eyes won't u?
it just hit me.. talking to LML.. i've just realised from the barrage of words that i just automatically typed out.. that i have sorta.. screwed up my future.
i have to choose something to major in my degree by this year. and truth be told, i don't know what to major in. i'm just choosing between the lesser of 2 evils? i don't even know what i'm doing! what am i looking for? so smart oso for what? nothing lar! i can't even decide what to do in this life of mine.
i've just realised. that all my life i've been so academically focused. that i've forgotten about my other talents. so, what if i'd actually gone for singing lessons? and taken another instrument? what if i'd been less lazy and more willing to give up my spare time to focus more on music? a bit too late for that now eh? a lot of IFs. what if i've chosen the wrong path; and am now walking down a path to what i will not like?
it's bad enough that i'm actually looking forward to being the wife of someone who's well off enough to take care of me. and all i do is be a housewife. geez. what a dream!*rolls eyes*. hardly even one actually. what am i doing with my life? i have so little time. yet i'm still so lost and unwilling to search for my future. i've been praying for some sign for the last few years. maybe i haven't been praying hard enough.
i don't know where my passion lies. i don't know what to do with my life. With God's blessing, i hope i choose the right thing.
i have to choose something to major in my degree by this year. and truth be told, i don't know what to major in. i'm just choosing between the lesser of 2 evils? i don't even know what i'm doing! what am i looking for? so smart oso for what? nothing lar! i can't even decide what to do in this life of mine.
i've just realised. that all my life i've been so academically focused. that i've forgotten about my other talents. so, what if i'd actually gone for singing lessons? and taken another instrument? what if i'd been less lazy and more willing to give up my spare time to focus more on music? a bit too late for that now eh? a lot of IFs. what if i've chosen the wrong path; and am now walking down a path to what i will not like?
it's bad enough that i'm actually looking forward to being the wife of someone who's well off enough to take care of me. and all i do is be a housewife. geez. what a dream!*rolls eyes*. hardly even one actually. what am i doing with my life? i have so little time. yet i'm still so lost and unwilling to search for my future. i've been praying for some sign for the last few years. maybe i haven't been praying hard enough.
i don't know where my passion lies. i don't know what to do with my life. With God's blessing, i hope i choose the right thing.
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