i think..
that in the end.. my 10% will not be wasted. i had fun. and i enjoyed myself. i love my li'l cousins a lot. and boy, they're the real things that made me happy this weekend. and well, 10%? it's a shame that i'm gonna screw up in my test. but heck.. i hope i'm not sounding too stupid. but i just think that it's worth it.
the wedding was probably a waste of time. but the time spent together with my cousins whom i miss so much is worth every single minute. i've also come to the realisation that my grandpa is probably at a stage of his life which is really frail. kinda freaks me out. i can only hope for the best. but heck, i don't think my grandpa can recognise me. and i daren't ask him if he does.. cuz if he does he might be offended. don't know why.. but i think my granddad's really dazed. can't blame him. he's probably really tired from all the travelling. i got the impression that he still thinks we're in malaysia. *eek*
i can hardly understand what my granddad is saying nowadays. it sucks. his parkinsons is causing his speech to slur. it's very very difficult. cuz i have to keep asking him to repeat himself. i think it's rather frustrating for both of us. i feel so bad. i have a feeling that he might be annoyed with me cuz i hardly do what he tells me.. just cuz i don't understand him. sigh. imagine me being frustrated cuz i don't understand what he wants. but what about him? not many ppl can understand wat he wants right? that's gotta be damn frustrating....
well, this time around.. i think i've learnt quite a bit. family is blood. but yet.. your own blood relative can be just as mean as that conniving thief who cheats you of your money. still, they're family. and i guess the only thing to do is just to be as civil and polite as u can be. and i guess, in a way.. let things pass. sigh.. there's no end to this ever i suppose.
the wedding was probably a waste of time. but the time spent together with my cousins whom i miss so much is worth every single minute. i've also come to the realisation that my grandpa is probably at a stage of his life which is really frail. kinda freaks me out. i can only hope for the best. but heck, i don't think my grandpa can recognise me. and i daren't ask him if he does.. cuz if he does he might be offended. don't know why.. but i think my granddad's really dazed. can't blame him. he's probably really tired from all the travelling. i got the impression that he still thinks we're in malaysia. *eek*
i can hardly understand what my granddad is saying nowadays. it sucks. his parkinsons is causing his speech to slur. it's very very difficult. cuz i have to keep asking him to repeat himself. i think it's rather frustrating for both of us. i feel so bad. i have a feeling that he might be annoyed with me cuz i hardly do what he tells me.. just cuz i don't understand him. sigh. imagine me being frustrated cuz i don't understand what he wants. but what about him? not many ppl can understand wat he wants right? that's gotta be damn frustrating....
well, this time around.. i think i've learnt quite a bit. family is blood. but yet.. your own blood relative can be just as mean as that conniving thief who cheats you of your money. still, they're family. and i guess the only thing to do is just to be as civil and polite as u can be. and i guess, in a way.. let things pass. sigh.. there's no end to this ever i suppose.
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