apologies my friends.
i have found the source of my agitation. i have come to realise, that i am very easily agitated by disorganisation. yes.. indeed.. i cannot not know what's going on. i have to have a plan!
thank u mei for helping me get organised!boy.. i would've been so lost without u!!
you see, before i was talking to her. i had absolutely no idea what i was meant to bring/do. i was just.. lost. so, i freak out.. and get really grumpy. now all i needed was just someone to give me some pointers and a bit of direction.. and PHEW.. i'm on track now:D!
in fact, mei even managed to get me all excited about tomolo's trip to waiwera! heheh.. i thrive on organisation. geez.. well, i don't mind spontaneity.. but my kinda of spontaneity is such:
i must have a rough plan. an outline.. a rough idea what's to happen.. any spontaneousness would happen WITHIN the plan.. which would sound something like this "oOoooo.. we've got time.. why don't we do such and such!"... now THAT.. is my idea of spontaneity.
my spontaneity does not consist of being told that we MAY do something tomolo.. but that depends.. not knowing what time i'm meant to wake up. not knowing what might happen. wasting precious minutes WAITING.. thus, could u pls.. be kind enough to just.. give me a li'l leeway. not asking for much. but at least, SOME sort of organisation. i would be very pleased if it were possible.
okay, so i don't mind if the aforementioned situation does happen where i know of what's to happen. but heck.. could that happen like.. less often? a once in a while thing as such wouldn't catch my grudge. however, when it starts happening too often.. the monster within me becomes me. emmm.. nvm.. i need to go to bed! nite ppl!:D
now.. to make a list.. heheheh ^.^
thank u mei for helping me get organised!boy.. i would've been so lost without u!!
you see, before i was talking to her. i had absolutely no idea what i was meant to bring/do. i was just.. lost. so, i freak out.. and get really grumpy. now all i needed was just someone to give me some pointers and a bit of direction.. and PHEW.. i'm on track now:D!
in fact, mei even managed to get me all excited about tomolo's trip to waiwera! heheh.. i thrive on organisation. geez.. well, i don't mind spontaneity.. but my kinda of spontaneity is such:
i must have a rough plan. an outline.. a rough idea what's to happen.. any spontaneousness would happen WITHIN the plan.. which would sound something like this "oOoooo.. we've got time.. why don't we do such and such!"... now THAT.. is my idea of spontaneity.
my spontaneity does not consist of being told that we MAY do something tomolo.. but that depends.. not knowing what time i'm meant to wake up. not knowing what might happen. wasting precious minutes WAITING.. thus, could u pls.. be kind enough to just.. give me a li'l leeway. not asking for much. but at least, SOME sort of organisation. i would be very pleased if it were possible.
okay, so i don't mind if the aforementioned situation does happen where i know of what's to happen. but heck.. could that happen like.. less often? a once in a while thing as such wouldn't catch my grudge. however, when it starts happening too often.. the monster within me becomes me. emmm.. nvm.. i need to go to bed! nite ppl!:D
now.. to make a list.. heheheh ^.^
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