Aaaaa BUZZ OFFF!!!
yeesh.. shit damn it bah... are my sleeping habits really affecting me? or is just that i was stressed and didn't have enough sleep that causes my skin to break out really badly? shit. i hate this. ok fine.. so yeah.. i know.. everyone then starts telling me.."sleep early!!!" aaaahh.. buzz off.. getting really annoyed with everyone telling me so. the thing is.. you don't understand that the wee hours of the morning provides me with solitude and quiet time which the day can never provide me with. i don't get phone calls midway typing a blog post from my sis to annoy me. i do my things WITHOUT interruptions from anyone. no annoying sisters coming in.. no phone calls to answer.. no nothing that i don't want that i can't control!!! i'm doing the things that I WANT!!! bloody hell.. feel like telling them "the reason why i sleep so late is so that i can get time to spend with myself and not talk to YOU! hah! and then i have less time to talk to you so i get less annoyed with you!!!"
and my eldest sister's sooo bloody annoying. come on.. shit shit shit.. you just DON'T go thru ppl's things on their computer. like hello?? i let you see the sydney pictures.. i open it all for you.. i told you NOT to look at my other photos. what do i have to do? password protect every damn thing? yeah.. sure.. i WILL if you continue doing so. incentive for me. i'll go do computer science like this.. and i'll do pharmacology or something and study the effects of sleeping late on breakouts on your face and prevention(other than sleeping early). i'll work in the wee hours of the morning. and totally change my biological clock so that the day time's the best repair time for my skin instead of night!! happy?! happy happy happy?! i'll do soo damn well that all of them will have NOTHING to say that i'll have the last damn laugh!
you know how i knew my sister's been going thru my things? when i said that sunday we're celebrating ben's b'day. and she's like.. who's ben? the one holding the tuna can? and my brain went into an overdrive trying to link ben with tuna can and my sister ever being present in the presence of ben. but NOOOoooo.. then it clicked.. "ooh.. no.. that's Stefan".. oh.. and she asks "is that so and so's bf?" and i'm like.. "what the.....!!!?????" shit.. damn idiotic. THEN i KNEW my sister was looking at things OTHER than my sydney pics. i KNEW she was doing that. cuz the whole time i was washing the bath tub she was at my comp. NO WAY she could've taken so long to see the sydney pics. then when i asked her she was like "looking at pics" and i sorta gave this cryptic comment "wah.. see the sydney pics oso so long?" don't think she got it.
think i was rude to my mum just now.>.< but i just couldn't stand her telling me to sleep early AFTER BOTH my sisters telling me to. like 3 consecutive "SLEEP EARLY" lectures from 3 diff ppl. arrghh.. i don't know how to explain to them.. NIGHT=solitude=inner peace='me' time=no YOU=no annoyance=it's all about ME! couldn't life just be easier. yeah.. sure.. so i'll be scarred for life due to the pimple marks on my face and no guy would want me. oh.. to hell with guys. i'm sure i'll be able to survive my life. so i'll be a lonely woman. some part of me might be unfulfilled yada yada yada.. i guess you win some, you lose some. i'll just make sure i make it so that well off enough and live my little life that's means pittance to others.
i guess in a way my temper got the better of me. i was probably being stubborn cuz i didn't wanna listen about how i should sleep early. yeah.. i was. but well, i guess sleeping early would mean me not being able to do something i like doing. that is to stay up at night. oh well.. we'll see what happens lar.. i'm just praying that my pimples would just go away and not bother me:( you're the root of all the problems!
*post edit: u know those love hate relationships?yeah.. i'm probably having one of those with my family. i get annoyed at them. but i know deep down i could never really hate them. they're family... life is just too complicating:(
and my eldest sister's sooo bloody annoying. come on.. shit shit shit.. you just DON'T go thru ppl's things on their computer. like hello?? i let you see the sydney pictures.. i open it all for you.. i told you NOT to look at my other photos. what do i have to do? password protect every damn thing? yeah.. sure.. i WILL if you continue doing so. incentive for me. i'll go do computer science like this.. and i'll do pharmacology or something and study the effects of sleeping late on breakouts on your face and prevention(other than sleeping early). i'll work in the wee hours of the morning. and totally change my biological clock so that the day time's the best repair time for my skin instead of night!! happy?! happy happy happy?! i'll do soo damn well that all of them will have NOTHING to say that i'll have the last damn laugh!
you know how i knew my sister's been going thru my things? when i said that sunday we're celebrating ben's b'day. and she's like.. who's ben? the one holding the tuna can? and my brain went into an overdrive trying to link ben with tuna can and my sister ever being present in the presence of ben. but NOOOoooo.. then it clicked.. "ooh.. no.. that's Stefan".. oh.. and she asks "is that so and so's bf?" and i'm like.. "what the.....!!!?????" shit.. damn idiotic. THEN i KNEW my sister was looking at things OTHER than my sydney pics. i KNEW she was doing that. cuz the whole time i was washing the bath tub she was at my comp. NO WAY she could've taken so long to see the sydney pics. then when i asked her she was like "looking at pics" and i sorta gave this cryptic comment "wah.. see the sydney pics oso so long?" don't think she got it.
think i was rude to my mum just now.>.< but i just couldn't stand her telling me to sleep early AFTER BOTH my sisters telling me to. like 3 consecutive "SLEEP EARLY" lectures from 3 diff ppl. arrghh.. i don't know how to explain to them.. NIGHT=solitude=inner peace='me' time=no YOU=no annoyance=it's all about ME! couldn't life just be easier. yeah.. sure.. so i'll be scarred for life due to the pimple marks on my face and no guy would want me. oh.. to hell with guys. i'm sure i'll be able to survive my life. so i'll be a lonely woman. some part of me might be unfulfilled yada yada yada.. i guess you win some, you lose some. i'll just make sure i make it so that well off enough and live my little life that's means pittance to others.
i guess in a way my temper got the better of me. i was probably being stubborn cuz i didn't wanna listen about how i should sleep early. yeah.. i was. but well, i guess sleeping early would mean me not being able to do something i like doing. that is to stay up at night. oh well.. we'll see what happens lar.. i'm just praying that my pimples would just go away and not bother me:( you're the root of all the problems!
*post edit: u know those love hate relationships?yeah.. i'm probably having one of those with my family. i get annoyed at them. but i know deep down i could never really hate them. they're family... life is just too complicating:(
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