oh crap..
i hate it when ppl lecture me to study harder.. it's for my benefit i know. but i guess deep down inside there's this hard headedness about me. i'm so stubborn i suppose. and not to mention LAZY! geez.. i have a feelin deep down that if i actually tried a little harder i would actually be getting marks much better than i have now. but the problem with me is that i get contented easily. and i'm happy with what i get. as long as they're reasonably good. like just at the borderline. *sigh*
dad keeps telling me to read more. like reading up material other than my notes.. readin up references. but i'm just so lazy to. maybe it's cuz i'm not that interested in what i'm doing. am amazed by my sister's bf. he's just sooo into what he's doing. he can't wait for the weekend to be over. he ENJOYS his work.. he LOVES working life!! man.. how many ppl can tell me that?! my sisters complain about work. most other ppl complain. not many ppl actually find the work of their choice/liking. and i have a feeling i'm bound to be one of them :`( sob.. i'm so lost. EVERYTIME ppl ask me what i'm doing. i'm like.. er.. bachelor of science >.< and then of course they'll be like.. "in??" and i'm like.. er..."no major yet.. heh heh^.^" "sigh.......
i feel so stupid.honestly. i don't know why i'm so careless about my future. i don't even bother researching what avenues there are for me. maybe it's b'cuz i like having fun so much. or maybe it's cause i don't think i'm all that interested in working. oh man.. i know i don't wanna be one of those ppl who never finish studying. sigh.. gotta make a decision. i've never been good at making big decisions. i always have to find out about what other ppl have to say and their opinion about things before i can even come to a decision. a decision which in truth i wouldn't be sure about either. most probably something i decided upon after taking in the opinion of everyone around me. *oh LoRd.. i really need your help*...
imagine. ask me what my fav colour is.. and i'll say "oh.. anything that's pleasing to the eye".. ask me what music i like? and i'll reply "anything sounds good.. i listen to all genres of music except mebe head banging stuff".. maybe the problem with me is that i like to many things. i just don't have ONE like.. i have a few.. i have to like everything. most things are too good to me to pass off..sigh.. man.. i really suck. oh heck..
darn.. i think i better go do something productive. i might read. cuz i seriously don't feel like writing my physics report now. haha.. even my lab partner has already done hers.. cuz she sent me an email asking me q's. erm.. yeah.. hahhaha.. oh well :P
nyaah.. stefan, ben and amy are thinking of going out on friday nite for movie and to denny's after that. just like wat we did last tuesday. crossing my fingers and hoping my parents will let me go.. sigh.. so much more difficult with parents around.. sigh.. oh well:) we'll see what happens.
dad keeps telling me to read more. like reading up material other than my notes.. readin up references. but i'm just so lazy to. maybe it's cuz i'm not that interested in what i'm doing. am amazed by my sister's bf. he's just sooo into what he's doing. he can't wait for the weekend to be over. he ENJOYS his work.. he LOVES working life!! man.. how many ppl can tell me that?! my sisters complain about work. most other ppl complain. not many ppl actually find the work of their choice/liking. and i have a feeling i'm bound to be one of them :`( sob.. i'm so lost. EVERYTIME ppl ask me what i'm doing. i'm like.. er.. bachelor of science >.< and then of course they'll be like.. "in??" and i'm like.. er..."no major yet.. heh heh^.^" "sigh.......
i feel so stupid.honestly. i don't know why i'm so careless about my future. i don't even bother researching what avenues there are for me. maybe it's b'cuz i like having fun so much. or maybe it's cause i don't think i'm all that interested in working. oh man.. i know i don't wanna be one of those ppl who never finish studying. sigh.. gotta make a decision. i've never been good at making big decisions. i always have to find out about what other ppl have to say and their opinion about things before i can even come to a decision. a decision which in truth i wouldn't be sure about either. most probably something i decided upon after taking in the opinion of everyone around me. *oh LoRd.. i really need your help*...
imagine. ask me what my fav colour is.. and i'll say "oh.. anything that's pleasing to the eye".. ask me what music i like? and i'll reply "anything sounds good.. i listen to all genres of music except mebe head banging stuff".. maybe the problem with me is that i like to many things. i just don't have ONE like.. i have a few.. i have to like everything. most things are too good to me to pass off..sigh.. man.. i really suck. oh heck..
darn.. i think i better go do something productive. i might read. cuz i seriously don't feel like writing my physics report now. haha.. even my lab partner has already done hers.. cuz she sent me an email asking me q's. erm.. yeah.. hahhaha.. oh well :P
nyaah.. stefan, ben and amy are thinking of going out on friday nite for movie and to denny's after that. just like wat we did last tuesday. crossing my fingers and hoping my parents will let me go.. sigh.. so much more difficult with parents around.. sigh.. oh well:) we'll see what happens.
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