epiphany of some sort.
i thought i'd never ever know the reason why. but maybe i am starting to understand why people hurt themselves when they are depressed or just down.
the physical pain just helps mask the emotional pain being felt. weird huh?
pls don't jump to conclusions thinking that i want to hurt myself. the thought may be enticing. however, years of logical thinking have taught my brain to differentiate between good things and bad. i know that hurting myself would not resolve anything.
yes, hurting yourself by cutting yourself would indeed cause you physical pain. which would take your mind off the emotional pain which you are feeling. but, is that a very good idea? i don't think so. i think that in the end it's just silly and probably not worth. the scars.. and consequences.
i have surprised myself on a few occasions. i've had such thoughts before. revelation no? but no. i have not succumbed to such thoughts. b'cuz i know better. that hurting myself would not help solve any problems. in the end, the emotional pain would still be there. even though physical pain might help, however, the effect is only temporary. and what if you get used to the physical pain? you'll just probably end up craving more. and you do even sillier things. things that actually might cause you to lose your life. which isn't worth. life is worth living. for me it is. i think i'd choose to live over dying.
i think a good way to purge yourself of doing harm to yourself, is to channel your grief/sadness into a more positive channel. i find that listening to music helps me a lot. sleeping does too. hah.. always knew my love for sleeping would help in some way or another. somehow a good night's sleep always helps to calm me down. to be less irrational. no matter how frustrated i am when i go to bed. i always wake up feeling less frustrated. i wake up feeling happier. not to say i'm a morning person or something. but, i just do.
i'm starting to realise, that emotions really does cloud up your decisions. and your logical thinking just goes berserk. doesn't work. you start to be irrational and unwilling to rationalise things. makes you stupid really. really really stupid. sometimes, when i wake up the next morning. i'm embarrassed by my thoughts from before i fell asleep. geez.. humans are so emotional. well, maybe it's just women.
i just wonder. which is better? singlehood or coupledom? mebe being single suits me better. mm.. or mebe i'm just being a coward. oh well, here goes life. and me rolling along with it.. roll roll roll....
the physical pain just helps mask the emotional pain being felt. weird huh?
pls don't jump to conclusions thinking that i want to hurt myself. the thought may be enticing. however, years of logical thinking have taught my brain to differentiate between good things and bad. i know that hurting myself would not resolve anything.
yes, hurting yourself by cutting yourself would indeed cause you physical pain. which would take your mind off the emotional pain which you are feeling. but, is that a very good idea? i don't think so. i think that in the end it's just silly and probably not worth. the scars.. and consequences.
i have surprised myself on a few occasions. i've had such thoughts before. revelation no? but no. i have not succumbed to such thoughts. b'cuz i know better. that hurting myself would not help solve any problems. in the end, the emotional pain would still be there. even though physical pain might help, however, the effect is only temporary. and what if you get used to the physical pain? you'll just probably end up craving more. and you do even sillier things. things that actually might cause you to lose your life. which isn't worth. life is worth living. for me it is. i think i'd choose to live over dying.
i think a good way to purge yourself of doing harm to yourself, is to channel your grief/sadness into a more positive channel. i find that listening to music helps me a lot. sleeping does too. hah.. always knew my love for sleeping would help in some way or another. somehow a good night's sleep always helps to calm me down. to be less irrational. no matter how frustrated i am when i go to bed. i always wake up feeling less frustrated. i wake up feeling happier. not to say i'm a morning person or something. but, i just do.
i'm starting to realise, that emotions really does cloud up your decisions. and your logical thinking just goes berserk. doesn't work. you start to be irrational and unwilling to rationalise things. makes you stupid really. really really stupid. sometimes, when i wake up the next morning. i'm embarrassed by my thoughts from before i fell asleep. geez.. humans are so emotional. well, maybe it's just women.
i just wonder. which is better? singlehood or coupledom? mebe being single suits me better. mm.. or mebe i'm just being a coward. oh well, here goes life. and me rolling along with it.. roll roll roll....
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