10th day of CNY..
and i had my li'l party/open house/CNY gathering. ehhe.. well, had about 14-15 ppl over. it's nice to have frens over. although to prepare is tedious.. i'm thankful for my aunt, grandma and of course.. last but not least.. my parents. mum esp. hehe.. did the cooking. in fact.. i was supposed to marinate and cook the chicken wings and tom yam chicken. but mum was like.. "huh.. 'sai hei'(waste effort) oni!".. fine.. my mum doesn't exactly trust me cooking does she? mmph.. but i cook in nz ler.. how to survive like this? so sad.. even worse...none of my frens trust my cooking!waaaa... sniff sniff.. sigh... nvm la..(hey cel.. can you remember what i cooked for jen's and mei's b'day??oh wait.. i remember.sausages and wedges.WE cooked it.. haha..)
anyway.. everything went well.. i do hope my frens had fun. wouldn't like to have anyone not having fun. towards the end i had a migraine.. felt a li'l dizzy and headachy.. but somehow, my migraine's gone. maybe it's because i've crossed the barrier of exhaustion. yes.. i'm quite tired actually. tomolo's not going to be a very relaxing day either. hehe.. got church and going to vee han's house. and monday's meng lee's house thing. wow.. hehe..
i'm kinda worried again now.(crap.. here i go again).. yeah.. just heard from my sis today that the city council in auckland wants to start charging for parking on my street. shit.. screwed. they are taking a survey now. i don't know what the residents on my street are going to say. i hope that more than 50% of the residents don't agree with it. i'm screwed if they do agree.. shit. and the thing is.. we can pay 100$ for residents car park. the problem is.. it doesn't apply for the kind of house i'm living in! oni for single storey houses. shit lar. it sucks. it really does you know. how can they do this?! saying something about the carparks are needed for blardey businesses lar. what businesses lar? the business buildings near my house there all go private carpark wut. ass.. so right.. businesses lar.. how about residents.. kiss my ass a*****n* city council!! ok.. at least they're taking into consideration the residents' opinions. so, i should give them the benefit of doubt. but city councils are always a bit the duh la.. they want to build this SUPERdome(a super big stadium.. think bukit jalil stadium) in the city centre.. well, JUST outside the city centre.. not exactly the city centre but on the fringe lar. and auckland city's not exactly well known for their availability for car parks. and guess what.. for a stadium that can seat thousands.. there are oni a few hundred car parks.. doh.. -_-?? and when i say a few hundred.. i do believe there are less than 500. their reasoning?? well, there's this transportation hub that stops in the city centre that's called britomart(think KL sentral). it's where all the trains, buses and ferries stop. but britomart's 20 mins walk away from the stadium.. and and and.. the closest car parks are also about 20 mins walk.. in fact.. more i believe. ok.. who wants to walk in the rain?? hehe.. if there's rain. hmm.. well, mebe they're crazy enough too lar. hehe..not me tho.. oh.. and the residents around Parnell(my housing area) are kinda worried as my housing area's like right next to the stadium(hey.. good for me eh?.. but wait..) as ppl going to the stadium are most probably gonna come to my area to park their cars clogging up my area.. ugh..and although a lot of residents have complained. our complaints have not been heeded. well, mebe they have their reasons. but i still think a few hundred carparks for a stadium that seats a few berpuluh thousand.. geez.. dumb!they put so much trust on their public transportation system. hmmph.. i seriously doubt it lar.
another thing that troubles my mind(it's a day of troubles eh?).. is the fact that it's quite dangerous for me to go out at night even though i'm with guy frens. sigh.. it's not that i'm not scared. but i like the night life. it really scares me all those stories about robberies and rape. but i can't help it.. i like going out. i feel like crying in frustration. why must ppl be so mean? shit.. ok.. you wanna rob me.. fine. worse that can happen is just i just lose money. but why must they kill and rape? it's so mean. i guess these ppl couldn't care less about others. but it's just so heart wrenching.. i give them credit for being so creative in coming up with ideas to rob ppl. but.. geez.. what asses.. they make ppl not trust others. there are thieves who pretend to be in need of help.. and then rob the unsuspecting victims who are trying to help the 'person in need of help'. shit.. no wonder this world's becoming so self centred. it's because of ppl like these who cause others not to care anymore. i seriously wouldn't know better when i see somebody on the street who looks in need of help. how am i supposed to know whether or not that person's a thief or not? i feel so frustrated! what am i supposed to do? pretend that i never saw that person? i can't do that.. it's against my principles. against what i've been thought. i hate those ppl!! why? i love this country. but i really hate a lot of things about it. it's just this really complicated love hate relationship. if only it were slightly better. i'd be able to make my decision whether or not to come back so much easier.. i hate it that it's so difficult. i feel like crying. but i won't. i want to be strong. i'm beginning to be weak. i hate that. i don't like being weak. it's not good. i never used to be so emotional. i don't like being emotional. i can't let anyone see me cry. well, not unless it's something really really bad that makes me cry.
i want to be strong. i want to be able to protect myself. i feel like taking up some self defence class and become really good at it. but knowing me. i'll never find the time. i don't like the feeling of being weak and defenseless.. it really sucks. i'm just putting my faith in God to keep me safe. but i can't just not do anything to keep myself safe either. i don't know. i guess i shouldn't go out late as much. but knowing me.. i can't do that. feel like screaming/crying.. i don't know. frustrated...
anyway.. everything went well.. i do hope my frens had fun. wouldn't like to have anyone not having fun. towards the end i had a migraine.. felt a li'l dizzy and headachy.. but somehow, my migraine's gone. maybe it's because i've crossed the barrier of exhaustion. yes.. i'm quite tired actually. tomolo's not going to be a very relaxing day either. hehe.. got church and going to vee han's house. and monday's meng lee's house thing. wow.. hehe..
i'm kinda worried again now.(crap.. here i go again).. yeah.. just heard from my sis today that the city council in auckland wants to start charging for parking on my street. shit.. screwed. they are taking a survey now. i don't know what the residents on my street are going to say. i hope that more than 50% of the residents don't agree with it. i'm screwed if they do agree.. shit. and the thing is.. we can pay 100$ for residents car park. the problem is.. it doesn't apply for the kind of house i'm living in! oni for single storey houses. shit lar. it sucks. it really does you know. how can they do this?! saying something about the carparks are needed for blardey businesses lar. what businesses lar? the business buildings near my house there all go private carpark wut. ass.. so right.. businesses lar.. how about residents.. kiss my ass a*****n* city council!! ok.. at least they're taking into consideration the residents' opinions. so, i should give them the benefit of doubt. but city councils are always a bit the duh la.. they want to build this SUPERdome(a super big stadium.. think bukit jalil stadium) in the city centre.. well, JUST outside the city centre.. not exactly the city centre but on the fringe lar. and auckland city's not exactly well known for their availability for car parks. and guess what.. for a stadium that can seat thousands.. there are oni a few hundred car parks.. doh.. -_-?? and when i say a few hundred.. i do believe there are less than 500. their reasoning?? well, there's this transportation hub that stops in the city centre that's called britomart(think KL sentral). it's where all the trains, buses and ferries stop. but britomart's 20 mins walk away from the stadium.. and and and.. the closest car parks are also about 20 mins walk.. in fact.. more i believe. ok.. who wants to walk in the rain?? hehe.. if there's rain. hmm.. well, mebe they're crazy enough too lar. hehe..not me tho.. oh.. and the residents around Parnell(my housing area) are kinda worried as my housing area's like right next to the stadium(hey.. good for me eh?.. but wait..) as ppl going to the stadium are most probably gonna come to my area to park their cars clogging up my area.. ugh..and although a lot of residents have complained. our complaints have not been heeded. well, mebe they have their reasons. but i still think a few hundred carparks for a stadium that seats a few berpuluh thousand.. geez.. dumb!they put so much trust on their public transportation system. hmmph.. i seriously doubt it lar.
another thing that troubles my mind(it's a day of troubles eh?).. is the fact that it's quite dangerous for me to go out at night even though i'm with guy frens. sigh.. it's not that i'm not scared. but i like the night life. it really scares me all those stories about robberies and rape. but i can't help it.. i like going out. i feel like crying in frustration. why must ppl be so mean? shit.. ok.. you wanna rob me.. fine. worse that can happen is just i just lose money. but why must they kill and rape? it's so mean. i guess these ppl couldn't care less about others. but it's just so heart wrenching.. i give them credit for being so creative in coming up with ideas to rob ppl. but.. geez.. what asses.. they make ppl not trust others. there are thieves who pretend to be in need of help.. and then rob the unsuspecting victims who are trying to help the 'person in need of help'. shit.. no wonder this world's becoming so self centred. it's because of ppl like these who cause others not to care anymore. i seriously wouldn't know better when i see somebody on the street who looks in need of help. how am i supposed to know whether or not that person's a thief or not? i feel so frustrated! what am i supposed to do? pretend that i never saw that person? i can't do that.. it's against my principles. against what i've been thought. i hate those ppl!! why? i love this country. but i really hate a lot of things about it. it's just this really complicated love hate relationship. if only it were slightly better. i'd be able to make my decision whether or not to come back so much easier.. i hate it that it's so difficult. i feel like crying. but i won't. i want to be strong. i'm beginning to be weak. i hate that. i don't like being weak. it's not good. i never used to be so emotional. i don't like being emotional. i can't let anyone see me cry. well, not unless it's something really really bad that makes me cry.
i want to be strong. i want to be able to protect myself. i feel like taking up some self defence class and become really good at it. but knowing me. i'll never find the time. i don't like the feeling of being weak and defenseless.. it really sucks. i'm just putting my faith in God to keep me safe. but i can't just not do anything to keep myself safe either. i don't know. i guess i shouldn't go out late as much. but knowing me.. i can't do that. feel like screaming/crying.. i don't know. frustrated...
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