Say what you mean, mean what you say.
Have heard that phrase twice in a short span of time. Don't know why.. doesn't mean anything to me but maybe it should.
Anyway, I'm feeling a bit contemplative again. Feeling unsettled. I think I'm bored again.. Bored of my job already, maybe. Perhaps this isn't what I love doing. No kidding... 4 months and counting.. sheesh. Okay, technically more than a year now. 14 months since I have started working.
I just want to stay home and bake cookies.
Disillusioned about the what ifs and what not.
Feeling envious of what others have... I want a bit of that too.
I have issues with my self-confidence. In believing that I can do something creative and be good at it. I stick to the safe, to the factual - thus, the reason I stuck to Science probably. I am not taking any risks. I don't believe in my abilities and talents. What then? I don't know..
I really just want to stay home and bake cookies right now.
:(
Feeling a tad miserable when really, is there reason to feel this way?
I can't see my future.. I can't imagine my future.. and I don't know how to plan for my future! There's no vision. I just simply don't know what I'm doing again. Ah, Christine's eternal "I am so lost" issues.
I just want to have a good chat to someone. A deep meaningful conversation. I'm such a mish mash of emotions right now.
I know I should just hoe on and all, but I just rather brood right now. I probably have an affinity for it.. people giving me pep talks and positivity talks annoy the heck out of me.
~~@~~
Palmy.. from what I saw of it anyway, has not really changed too much I think. Though, the only mall, The Plaza, seems to have expanded. There's now a multi-storey carpark where it used to just be an open carpark next to the Countdown. Wow. I didn't have time to have a walk around unfortunately. Didn't get to meet my ex-supervisor at Fonterra either. I would have loved to have gone to the places I used to frequent. Mm.. that Thai place with the Pineapple fried rice. yummers :)
Ah well, bed time for me. Night.
Have heard that phrase twice in a short span of time. Don't know why.. doesn't mean anything to me but maybe it should.
Anyway, I'm feeling a bit contemplative again. Feeling unsettled. I think I'm bored again.. Bored of my job already, maybe. Perhaps this isn't what I love doing. No kidding... 4 months and counting.. sheesh. Okay, technically more than a year now. 14 months since I have started working.
I just want to stay home and bake cookies.
Disillusioned about the what ifs and what not.
Feeling envious of what others have... I want a bit of that too.
I have issues with my self-confidence. In believing that I can do something creative and be good at it. I stick to the safe, to the factual - thus, the reason I stuck to Science probably. I am not taking any risks. I don't believe in my abilities and talents. What then? I don't know..
I really just want to stay home and bake cookies right now.
:(
Feeling a tad miserable when really, is there reason to feel this way?
I can't see my future.. I can't imagine my future.. and I don't know how to plan for my future! There's no vision. I just simply don't know what I'm doing again. Ah, Christine's eternal "I am so lost" issues.
I just want to have a good chat to someone. A deep meaningful conversation. I'm such a mish mash of emotions right now.
I know I should just hoe on and all, but I just rather brood right now. I probably have an affinity for it.. people giving me pep talks and positivity talks annoy the heck out of me.
~~@~~
Palmy.. from what I saw of it anyway, has not really changed too much I think. Though, the only mall, The Plaza, seems to have expanded. There's now a multi-storey carpark where it used to just be an open carpark next to the Countdown. Wow. I didn't have time to have a walk around unfortunately. Didn't get to meet my ex-supervisor at Fonterra either. I would have loved to have gone to the places I used to frequent. Mm.. that Thai place with the Pineapple fried rice. yummers :)
Ah well, bed time for me. Night.
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