i've hit an all time low.
and it sucks being here.
no.1: i don't know what i'm feeling. and i don't know what i'm thinking. all i know is. i'm not happy. and i'm extremely down. pretending to be happy is also a pretty hard task i'm telling you.
no.2: i feel like doing something. but i don't wanna regret it in the end.
no.3: i'm feeling annoyed.. VERy VERY VERY annoyed. F***!!!
no.4: i'm extremely ashamed at the amount of cursing that i've been doing lately. but i just can't help it. i need to vent some anger. i know not where.
no.5: i need to talk to someone. but have not the energy to. neither are they, the friends whom i trust,love,and cherish, online.
no.6: i'm suffering from a tummy bug
no.7: my mood's been all ruined for tomorrow. or rather later tonight. Dv8, a dance party now seems like a few hours of torture to me. I would pull out. If only i hadn't already got the ticket and made plans with my friends. a friend is staying over. impossible to pull out.
no.8: there is no way i can sort this out anytime soon. circumstances are such that it would be rather impossible for me to sort this out. not unless by some MIRACLE someone wakes up at 9 something. i can just faint from laughter. that's how hard i will laugh.
no.9: i'm contemplating on something serious. however i am rather reluctant to act on it. i am still trying to dissect myself to find the reason to my reluctance. it's either for love, or it's just for something else.something not worth suffering for.
no.10: i'm starting to sound like a bloody grandma ranting on and on. but that's me i guess. always stuck in a 'loop'.
no.11: i am conscious however of how lucky i am to be here, healthy and having everything that's good. some ppl out there are losing their lives. i should be happy i have mine.
no.12: my parents are leaving tomorrow. i don't know whether to be happy or sad.
no.13: my 2nd sis is going for DV8 too. should i be excited or not?
no 14: my pride's been given a big dent. it's like someone slamming the phone down on you, hanging up on you. however, only virtually doing so.(online)
no 15: i should be asleep by now. there's no way i can survive tomorrow. next week's gonna be hell. trust me. it will be.
no 16: this whole week was dragging past me. i need to sleep earlier. (hah.. like THAT will happen)
no.1: i don't know what i'm feeling. and i don't know what i'm thinking. all i know is. i'm not happy. and i'm extremely down. pretending to be happy is also a pretty hard task i'm telling you.
no.2: i feel like doing something. but i don't wanna regret it in the end.
no.3: i'm feeling annoyed.. VERy VERY VERY annoyed. F***!!!
no.4: i'm extremely ashamed at the amount of cursing that i've been doing lately. but i just can't help it. i need to vent some anger. i know not where.
no.5: i need to talk to someone. but have not the energy to. neither are they, the friends whom i trust,love,and cherish, online.
no.6: i'm suffering from a tummy bug
no.7: my mood's been all ruined for tomorrow. or rather later tonight. Dv8, a dance party now seems like a few hours of torture to me. I would pull out. If only i hadn't already got the ticket and made plans with my friends. a friend is staying over. impossible to pull out.
no.8: there is no way i can sort this out anytime soon. circumstances are such that it would be rather impossible for me to sort this out. not unless by some MIRACLE someone wakes up at 9 something. i can just faint from laughter. that's how hard i will laugh.
no.9: i'm contemplating on something serious. however i am rather reluctant to act on it. i am still trying to dissect myself to find the reason to my reluctance. it's either for love, or it's just for something else.something not worth suffering for.
no.10: i'm starting to sound like a bloody grandma ranting on and on. but that's me i guess. always stuck in a 'loop'.
no.11: i am conscious however of how lucky i am to be here, healthy and having everything that's good. some ppl out there are losing their lives. i should be happy i have mine.
no.12: my parents are leaving tomorrow. i don't know whether to be happy or sad.
no.13: my 2nd sis is going for DV8 too. should i be excited or not?
no 14: my pride's been given a big dent. it's like someone slamming the phone down on you, hanging up on you. however, only virtually doing so.(online)
no 15: i should be asleep by now. there's no way i can survive tomorrow. next week's gonna be hell. trust me. it will be.
no 16: this whole week was dragging past me. i need to sleep earlier. (hah.. like THAT will happen)
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