sorry yet again.

no photos yet again. due to some unforseen circumstances which have put me in a real lousy mood, i am probably gonna blog about nothing but mediocre boring depressing crap.

i really appreciate all your concern. and i really appreciate the fact that i have so many friends. i know i look like i'm okay. but i guess deep down inside i am not. when i am alone i guess that's when i really know.

i know time will heal. i know i will understand one day. i know i should be reasonable. and the other party was too(i suppose). i know that there's more to life and i know that life just doesn't stop here.

i know that i shouldn't be too stupid to keep thinking about it and i know that i need to stop thinking about it.

i know i have to give up all hope. and i know i should not rekindle any hope.

i know i have to be logical and i know i have to have my common sense.

i know there's someone out there who's better for me(or maybe not). i also know that i have to be positive. for every night, there is a day. for every unhappy moment... there should be a happy one.

i know i should move on with life.

but then again.. it's only been 20 hours since. of course i'm still finding it hard. well, trust me. i think i've done REALLY well for it. i haven't broken down in public, i've made jokes. i've managed to eat and i've managed to drive. i've managed to enjoy a movie+a cuppa frozen coke and i've managed to have my laughs.

i've also managed to reaffirm my faith that i have friends who love and care for me.

thank you all. like i said. for every down there's an up. my up at this moment are my friends. love to all of you. thank u.