Emotional wreck. Unfit for human contact.
I took a drive.. The long long way home. After I had to go back to uni because while emo-ing on my bed, at 10.30pm, I realised that I had forgotten to do texture analyses on my bread. Can't afford to lose another day. So, I went back. I am chicken shit. I have to say. It's so scary, being there alone.
So many "why" questions.
So many reasons to beat myself down.
So many reasons to say that I am not worthy.
So many reasons to say that I am just.. well, I should just slip into a pit of despair.
Haha. I took a drive to calm my soul.. I ended up obsessing about how much the petrol would cost me. I am such.. a loser. kau tim dot com.
Where art thou my knight in shining armour?
I'm putting on weight. wahoo.. and I just keep eating and eating.
I took a drive.. The long long way home. After I had to go back to uni because while emo-ing on my bed, at 10.30pm, I realised that I had forgotten to do texture analyses on my bread. Can't afford to lose another day. So, I went back. I am chicken shit. I have to say. It's so scary, being there alone.
So many "why" questions.
So many reasons to beat myself down.
So many reasons to say that I am not worthy.
So many reasons to say that I am just.. well, I should just slip into a pit of despair.
Haha. I took a drive to calm my soul.. I ended up obsessing about how much the petrol would cost me. I am such.. a loser. kau tim dot com.
Where art thou my knight in shining armour?
I'm putting on weight. wahoo.. and I just keep eating and eating.
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