first day of uni...
was something i somewhat expected of it. well, kinda didn't expect anything from it lar. didn't want to be dissapointed. basically felt like any other day. just that i was attending lectures which felt more like what sk called them, seminars. haha.. what with the few hundred odd students in each of my lectures. and one of my lectures, i didn't get into the lecture theatre i wanted to. the one where the lecturer is actually in. instead i had to go to the class that had the televised lecture. weird. but interesting. however.. kinda impossible for me to ask any q's at all.. oh heck, what are my chances of getting the lecturer's attention in a class of 400+ ppl? haha.. sheesh.. 4 lectures a day.. it's really exhausting. i have no idea how i managed it in school. it's so stressful!! hahha.. by the last lecture, physics 160, my head was level with the table. doink.. on the table. snore... even though a fren's fren gave me a sweet to suck on. the oni thing that was going thru my brain at that time was "don't choke on the sweet.. you don't want to attract attention!!".. yeesh.. the lecturer just kept droning on and on about units and measurements. help!!!
anyhooo.. i don't know. i have this problem with me.. i'm obsessed with my embarrassing moments. i keep mulling over them. i need to get a grip. i need to change 2 things about myself.
1) stop obsessing about my embarrassing moments.
2) stop droning on and on about things and annoying ppl by consistently complaining about it..
okay.. mebe 3 things..
3)stop being such a nag?haha.. yeah.. tell ppl things a couple of times then shut up! hahahha
i hate myself sometimes. i find myself annoying sometimes. especially when i get on one of my hyper modes. i just can't shut up. and i do things which when i think about again later.. i feel embarrassed. it's nothing big. it's not stupid things. but they are things that i guess the docile and proper me won't do. i'm so imbalanced. i need balance in my life. my dear friends out there. pls be honest with me.. what is there about me that really makes you scratch your head and wonder "what an idiot?". send me emails..message me thru icq.. or chat thru msn with me and pls tell me. i really need to know. gah.. help.. i'm feeling so weird today. i'm dreading uni tomolo. have to wake up early and go to class after class and not be able to come home for a while. boring. snoree...and it's just going with the crowd. i don't like my classes. they're so huge. so big. so impersonal. i couldn't care less. i have a fren. i'm fine. but the thing is. i just feel so claustrophobic in lecture theatres. especially the older ones. ugh..
i'm in a fix. i think i might have screwed myself for next year's uni studies. i still don't know what to do for next year. what major should i pick up? i'm so screwed >_< i still can't decide. what the hell is wrong with me. i'm really really really indecisive. i can't believe this. i don't have anything that i'm interested in! i'm such a visionless person. what the heck.. i seriously really need help. sigh.. now the papers i'm taking might not enable me to go into certain majors. i need help!!! gah. i think i better go now. gonna study prospectuses.. sucks.. see you around. there's nothing i hate more then going thru those prospectuses.. egad..
anyhooo.. i don't know. i have this problem with me.. i'm obsessed with my embarrassing moments. i keep mulling over them. i need to get a grip. i need to change 2 things about myself.
1) stop obsessing about my embarrassing moments.
2) stop droning on and on about things and annoying ppl by consistently complaining about it..
okay.. mebe 3 things..
3)stop being such a nag?haha.. yeah.. tell ppl things a couple of times then shut up! hahahha
i hate myself sometimes. i find myself annoying sometimes. especially when i get on one of my hyper modes. i just can't shut up. and i do things which when i think about again later.. i feel embarrassed. it's nothing big. it's not stupid things. but they are things that i guess the docile and proper me won't do. i'm so imbalanced. i need balance in my life. my dear friends out there. pls be honest with me.. what is there about me that really makes you scratch your head and wonder "what an idiot?". send me emails..message me thru icq.. or chat thru msn with me and pls tell me. i really need to know. gah.. help.. i'm feeling so weird today. i'm dreading uni tomolo. have to wake up early and go to class after class and not be able to come home for a while. boring. snoree...and it's just going with the crowd. i don't like my classes. they're so huge. so big. so impersonal. i couldn't care less. i have a fren. i'm fine. but the thing is. i just feel so claustrophobic in lecture theatres. especially the older ones. ugh..
i'm in a fix. i think i might have screwed myself for next year's uni studies. i still don't know what to do for next year. what major should i pick up? i'm so screwed >_< i still can't decide. what the hell is wrong with me. i'm really really really indecisive. i can't believe this. i don't have anything that i'm interested in! i'm such a visionless person. what the heck.. i seriously really need help. sigh.. now the papers i'm taking might not enable me to go into certain majors. i need help!!! gah. i think i better go now. gonna study prospectuses.. sucks.. see you around. there's nothing i hate more then going thru those prospectuses.. egad..
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