brain's so blank....
flight responses are making me want to run away. I have no idea from what. The truth? haha.. that's a good reason.
*edit*3.02am
I just noticed how cool it is tonight. I don't think I would even need to switch on the air-cond. A result, of course, of the thunderstorm this afternoon and the mild one that followed later in the evening. The water running from the tap is realy nice and cool. Cold might I even say.. cause it sure made me go "Brrr" when I washed my face. I like this coolness. I get to listen to the crickets.. and in the day, I get to listen to birds call over the whirring of my air-conditioner.
Life seems quite a mess lately. Mostly because I probably have chosen for it to be this way. The way I act and all.. from the events of the past few days, I can't help but be a bit contemplative on the kind of person I am.
No doubt.. I have become somewhat bitter and uncouth. To be honest, I actually kind of relish this. Being bitter. The will or rather, the choice of being happy somewhat just makes me go "pah bah". Sigh..
I also feel like such a failure in many things. Maybe I should take the good old advice of not making any empty promises. Or rather, I need to be aware of what promises I make, that they may end up to be more empty than anything.
My will to do good can sometimes backfire as I just have not the capabilities or the compassion to do so? I want to be there for my friends.. but I have not the sense nor the capability to. Thus, as a result, I am a failure and pretty much do the opposite of what I set upon doing.
Maybe I should just shut up and sit there and wait. I mean, no harm in that right?
There are so many bigger things going on in this world and we just get so wrapped up with our own problems. Hmm..
Don't really know what to do.. Maybe I will just leave things be and just sit still. I don't want to do anything more. Lest I make things worse.. Or is that in itself, the wrong thing to do?
I'm going to switch off my lights. and sit here in the dark, listening to the crickets..who have.. kind of quietened down a little.. hmm... I wonder why.. Come to think of it, I think I have done this before sometime in the past.. haha.. My 'emo' sessions maybe...
oh.. I heard someone snoring just now too. haha.
flight responses are making me want to run away. I have no idea from what. The truth? haha.. that's a good reason.
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*edit*3.02am
I just noticed how cool it is tonight. I don't think I would even need to switch on the air-cond. A result, of course, of the thunderstorm this afternoon and the mild one that followed later in the evening. The water running from the tap is realy nice and cool. Cold might I even say.. cause it sure made me go "Brrr" when I washed my face. I like this coolness. I get to listen to the crickets.. and in the day, I get to listen to birds call over the whirring of my air-conditioner.
Life seems quite a mess lately. Mostly because I probably have chosen for it to be this way. The way I act and all.. from the events of the past few days, I can't help but be a bit contemplative on the kind of person I am.
No doubt.. I have become somewhat bitter and uncouth. To be honest, I actually kind of relish this. Being bitter. The will or rather, the choice of being happy somewhat just makes me go "pah bah". Sigh..
I also feel like such a failure in many things. Maybe I should take the good old advice of not making any empty promises. Or rather, I need to be aware of what promises I make, that they may end up to be more empty than anything.
My will to do good can sometimes backfire as I just have not the capabilities or the compassion to do so? I want to be there for my friends.. but I have not the sense nor the capability to. Thus, as a result, I am a failure and pretty much do the opposite of what I set upon doing.
Maybe I should just shut up and sit there and wait. I mean, no harm in that right?
There are so many bigger things going on in this world and we just get so wrapped up with our own problems. Hmm..
Don't really know what to do.. Maybe I will just leave things be and just sit still. I don't want to do anything more. Lest I make things worse.. Or is that in itself, the wrong thing to do?
I'm going to switch off my lights. and sit here in the dark, listening to the crickets..who have.. kind of quietened down a little.. hmm... I wonder why.. Come to think of it, I think I have done this before sometime in the past.. haha.. My 'emo' sessions maybe...
oh.. I heard someone snoring just now too. haha.
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