It's just one of those days.
Where you just feel like sitting in your room and darkness feels more like a friend. The dimmer the light the better. Maybe I'm becoming a night owl for real now. Or maybe I'm just feeling a little mellow. LIstening to music from the soundtrack of 'Notting Hill' just suits my mood so well.
I slept the whole day away again. It's amazing. I wonder whether it's because I've screwed up my whole sleeping habit. On Sunday I probably saw sunlight for about an hour or two. I basically woke up for church, got ready but then suddenly had bouts of diarrhoea so I ended up staying home. Crawled back into bed and there I was for the rest of the day till 6 something in the evening. Yep. Lunch consisted of 2 buns that were eaten in my room..
Yesterday, was at megamall the whole day. Today, maybe I've just been exhausted from the yesterday's whole-day excursion to the mall. I was woken up just before 12 by my mum who wanted me to drive her to the bank which I did. And I ended up spending 35-40 minutes in the car waiting for her. Shucks... Hey.. maybe today's exhaustion was due to carbon monoxide poisoning!! hehehehehe.. Dunnolah. But came home. Had lunch and dropped mum off at her beautician's and then slept for another 3-4 hours.. Sheesh.
Feeling like I've lost some things. Friendships to be precise. For some, I have the guilt of being the one in the wrong. However, I feel like some things just can't be avoided. Some things have just slipped out of my hands and I have no control over. I have not the wisdom to correct things. How do you handle things when there are people you dislike... Maybe it's just a prejudice. You try to ignore the feeling and well, just get on with life and leave things be. BUt the feeling is just constantly there. Sigh. I guess what I can just do is just continue the way that I am. TO continuously ignore I suppose. Oh well, just leave it to fate I suppose.
I love these 'down' times. Where I just sit alone in my room. And listen to music, if not in darkness then in very dim light. SOmetimes, it's just good to have these kind of moments. Reminds me of the things I once appreciated in this lifetime of mine which I should continue to cherish. Sigh. I must remember to look to the sky once in a while and awe in its brilliance and magnitude. Then I will remember about the wonders that I've been blessed with.
Take myself out of this wicked world and to a peaceful place....
Where you just feel like sitting in your room and darkness feels more like a friend. The dimmer the light the better. Maybe I'm becoming a night owl for real now. Or maybe I'm just feeling a little mellow. LIstening to music from the soundtrack of 'Notting Hill' just suits my mood so well.
I slept the whole day away again. It's amazing. I wonder whether it's because I've screwed up my whole sleeping habit. On Sunday I probably saw sunlight for about an hour or two. I basically woke up for church, got ready but then suddenly had bouts of diarrhoea so I ended up staying home. Crawled back into bed and there I was for the rest of the day till 6 something in the evening. Yep. Lunch consisted of 2 buns that were eaten in my room..
Yesterday, was at megamall the whole day. Today, maybe I've just been exhausted from the yesterday's whole-day excursion to the mall. I was woken up just before 12 by my mum who wanted me to drive her to the bank which I did. And I ended up spending 35-40 minutes in the car waiting for her. Shucks... Hey.. maybe today's exhaustion was due to carbon monoxide poisoning!! hehehehehe.. Dunnolah. But came home. Had lunch and dropped mum off at her beautician's and then slept for another 3-4 hours.. Sheesh.
Feeling like I've lost some things. Friendships to be precise. For some, I have the guilt of being the one in the wrong. However, I feel like some things just can't be avoided. Some things have just slipped out of my hands and I have no control over. I have not the wisdom to correct things. How do you handle things when there are people you dislike... Maybe it's just a prejudice. You try to ignore the feeling and well, just get on with life and leave things be. BUt the feeling is just constantly there. Sigh. I guess what I can just do is just continue the way that I am. TO continuously ignore I suppose. Oh well, just leave it to fate I suppose.
I love these 'down' times. Where I just sit alone in my room. And listen to music, if not in darkness then in very dim light. SOmetimes, it's just good to have these kind of moments. Reminds me of the things I once appreciated in this lifetime of mine which I should continue to cherish. Sigh. I must remember to look to the sky once in a while and awe in its brilliance and magnitude. Then I will remember about the wonders that I've been blessed with.
Take myself out of this wicked world and to a peaceful place....
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