There is just something about me that I can never really understand.
My mind doesn't think in a straight way. It has to complicate things, create drama and make myself get upset. i.e. work in a round-about manner. Ergo, I spend the whole day or so moping about the house not wanting to do anything but trying really hard to keep myself busy to prevent myself from thinking more. That.. has seriously got to be the brain of a drama queen no?
As for me.. I will never be happy until EVERYTHING is settled. Even when I get something off my chest, I end up thinking about the amount of time I have wasted moping about the house and the energy wasted blababla.. Which is obviously, very... stupid and ridiculous.
One thing I hate is people who can never give me a definite time or plan. Look, I'm already so indecisive as it is. DO NOT rely on me to give you a time or place. Just tell me to be there or be square because if you're going to rely ON ME to decide. Oh, I wish you the very BEST of luck as I'm one of the most indecisive people to walk on this face of earth! Trust me.. I have enough indecisiveness with MYSELF to last me MORE than a lifetime so I do NOT need someone else's indecisiveness to add to it. *lord help me*
IN saying so, I have realised that I have so many negative sides to me. Which makes me wonder if I have any positives at all! Well, maybe I do. However, the pessimist in me(there you go, another negative) just keeps screaming and focusing on the bad!
So, given in a situation, where the bf comes to visit me, but at a much later time than I had expected, there are two paths in which my brain can walk down..
ONe, the positive.. well.. at least he's here.. and let's enjoy every minute of it.
TWo, the negative... Ugh.. so annoying! Always later than I expect one! Yeesh.. No mood now!
Well, the latter is more often than not the one I choose. Therefore, things just go disastrous from there.
Indeed.. it's like the pathology of Christine's behaviour! So, I shall ATTEMPT to TRY and focus on the positive now. Which is.. I will think about how OKAY it is that he's coming around 7.30-8.00 before we can go look for dinner which would be 8.30 by the time we both decide where to go(oh hail indecision!) and eat. Ergo, I'm gonna go get something for myself to eat now before I get gastric and get more irritated.
So, ppl.. what is Christine currently annoyed with?
She's annoyed because she's wasted a bloody whole day moping about NOTHING. hah! there we go.
ON a brighter note, Martin.. I think I'm beginning to understand hope vs expectation! So, I'm going to HOPE more.. and EXPECT less.
My mind doesn't think in a straight way. It has to complicate things, create drama and make myself get upset. i.e. work in a round-about manner. Ergo, I spend the whole day or so moping about the house not wanting to do anything but trying really hard to keep myself busy to prevent myself from thinking more. That.. has seriously got to be the brain of a drama queen no?
As for me.. I will never be happy until EVERYTHING is settled. Even when I get something off my chest, I end up thinking about the amount of time I have wasted moping about the house and the energy wasted blababla.. Which is obviously, very... stupid and ridiculous.
One thing I hate is people who can never give me a definite time or plan. Look, I'm already so indecisive as it is. DO NOT rely on me to give you a time or place. Just tell me to be there or be square because if you're going to rely ON ME to decide. Oh, I wish you the very BEST of luck as I'm one of the most indecisive people to walk on this face of earth! Trust me.. I have enough indecisiveness with MYSELF to last me MORE than a lifetime so I do NOT need someone else's indecisiveness to add to it. *lord help me*
IN saying so, I have realised that I have so many negative sides to me. Which makes me wonder if I have any positives at all! Well, maybe I do. However, the pessimist in me(there you go, another negative) just keeps screaming and focusing on the bad!
So, given in a situation, where the bf comes to visit me, but at a much later time than I had expected, there are two paths in which my brain can walk down..
ONe, the positive.. well.. at least he's here.. and let's enjoy every minute of it.
TWo, the negative... Ugh.. so annoying! Always later than I expect one! Yeesh.. No mood now!
Well, the latter is more often than not the one I choose. Therefore, things just go disastrous from there.
Indeed.. it's like the pathology of Christine's behaviour! So, I shall ATTEMPT to TRY and focus on the positive now. Which is.. I will think about how OKAY it is that he's coming around 7.30-8.00 before we can go look for dinner which would be 8.30 by the time we both decide where to go(oh hail indecision!) and eat. Ergo, I'm gonna go get something for myself to eat now before I get gastric and get more irritated.
So, ppl.. what is Christine currently annoyed with?
She's annoyed because she's wasted a bloody whole day moping about NOTHING. hah! there we go.
ON a brighter note, Martin.. I think I'm beginning to understand hope vs expectation! So, I'm going to HOPE more.. and EXPECT less.
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