When I look in a mirror...

or at photos of myself..

I don't see just me. I see a flawed me. I immediately focus on the bad.. and not see what's good. HOw's that for self-esteem.

I don't know how to appreciate in the moment, I instead think of how wrong it is.. or what's been done wrong, then realise what a controlling bi*ch I am. Only then do I change my tune.

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Okay.. positives first... although I did type the bottom part first.. lol..

Birthday.. was good. THanks to everyone who made it special for me. Especially someone special. I am sorry I made you feel like I wasn't happy. I am.. and very touched as well for all the effort put into it. I just.. am not in the right frame of mind I suppose. Nonetheless.. at least you made me go out instead of moping about at home..

Secondly, thanks to the girls for the lovely time as well. Lol.. indeed. Mutated scampis... and what nots.. the laughs were great. I think I need to be dragged out more often girls..

And of course... who can forget family? THey're always there, taken for granted and forgotten. No matter what, you gotta love your family. no matter how dysfunctional or irritating. Heck.. they're the ones who helped you build you character.. The good and the bad. Lol.. ah well.. I've got myself a LOUD and occasionally crazy bunch as a family... who can really get on your nerves sometimes.. but oh well, not like I'm an angel myself . hehehehe.

Some pictures...

Dinner with family






















Wat laa.. I had to light my own b'day cake!





COnducting the orchestra in singing my Happy b'day song.


hun, your eyes are scary here o.o.. you're the only one with red eye!


Sunday celebrations.





heh heh heh.. all mINNNEEE


look so gloomy one?


Cake.. round 2.. courtesy of Mr. Wong.


shizzles.. real gold!!! tastes... like nothing.



Night time celebrations.

Hehehe.. they sang Happy Birthday to me tooooo.. *so sweeT*


LUcy.. I don't know whether to take you to a Jap restaurant where they have prawn/scampi shells ever again!!! hhehehhehe.. joking joking.. hooray for the scampi!











did i mention mutated scampi?

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I hate my carrots. I don't know what I'm doing. Makes me wonder... really.. what's the point! I read, I learn, I forget. Grr.. It's not as if this research has any point. I have learnt.. nothign. honestly. Well, I think I haven't.

Stupid experiments. Stupid research. I hate not knowing. I guess that's why I hate research in the first place.

I spent a whole day doing ESEM. Don't know how much that's gonna cost. Probably way over budget. Yeesh.. the day started not so much on a good footing. Oh well, it's better now. Hmm.. I think my car's still outside and not in the garage. I better go drive it in.