morning again.
Well, okay.. let's see.. It's been a while since I've done a proper blog post
haven't I? Then again, life's pretty mundane that I haven't exactly been doing
anything different, ergo, nothing to tell you about. Nope.
Itching to go shopping but thinking that I really should just save my $$!
Hmm.. I seem to have this problem whereby whenever I start writing a blog post
with zest, I seem to fizzle pop out soon enough.. like now. After barely even 4
proper paragraphs I'm already bored. Okay, probably cuz I don't have much to
tell you that's why. Whenever I start writing something I THINK that I have
things to say I end up not having anything to say.
Well well..
I am bored. I don't know why I even bother coming to work becuse I'm just being
super unproductive. Lol.. no kidding.
Hmm.. something's slipped my mind.. I was about to say it. oopsy daisy.
I think there's this nagging at the edge of my mind about how I really should
decide what I want to do next year, yet... I'm still undecided and I'm trying
to ignore as much of it as possible. In denial I suppose you can say. Amy's
written her achievements for the year.. I still am too lazy to think about what
I've achieved this year..
Well, I've come up with two. I've graduated... and I managed to come out pretty
okay from the 2nd semester. A trying year.. Indeed.. A very.. interesting year
as well.. I'm probably only half as fun as I used to be. People wonder how does
one person change and become one that is not as happy as they used to be. Well,
I can say now that, even when a person does change, they might not realise it
or it might not be as obvious to them. Like me, I do realise that I have
somewhat changed quite a bit but I am unable to determine by how much exactly.
I don't know what I did to end up the way that i am now. All I know is,
something just happened along the way, and I'm just a really tired person. All
I can think about now is how I feel so tired.
Maybe this is just what I need to get used to. I am after all, no longer a kid.
No more holidays for me. I guess I never realised how it would be. I've told
myself before, that from that moment onwards, it would be different and i
wouldn't be able to enjoy myself as much. I guess I just never really realised
how it actually feels like.
Okay, so this is starting to get rather long, ranty and repetitive. Well, I've
grown up(I think).. Sometimes, I just feel like I've taken a few steps back. I
personally feel I'm unprepared and not ready to face the world. Probably not
strong enough to face anythign alone. Which kind of sucks... meaning, I'm not a
very independent person. But oh well.. I guess one can only learn to be if one
really wants to change. 9.40am. Time to do some work.
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